hockey!..we lose~

hockey+progress test+medic team+al-quds are in the way..wuu~...a bit busy now..dun have the time to study becoz of training for hockey..today, the day for hockey match..we lose to 'cikgu2'..haha..i meant..FEDU....won 1 game just like dat becoz FKM didnt play..is it FKA or else..huhu..i dun care...tmrw another game..walao~..i just cant believe it..need to do our best tmrw..gudluck everyone!.. felt very happy with this SAF thing..sukan antara fakulti..erm.btw, this is the first time for 2nd year that i didnt went back home..wuu~..i dunno why, mum called and asked me whether i wanted to go back home or not..but i refused..i dunno why...i just thought i love it that way..huhu...anyway..cheers for the losers..haha..cheers also for the winners~...


p/s: i am still searching for my happiness..one happiness i've already got----hockey....anything else..only God knows best..wuuuu~..

wow! hols for H1N1 is over~

its been so long i didnt post anything here..i thought that i shud really stop blogging..but suddenly POP!..n now here i am..hurm, hols?..so many obstacles during this hols..aiseh..h1n1 limits my activities..i felt a bit down this hols..i know why..but i dunno why i am like this..urgh~.....n also bout mum who suddenly fall sick....fever n so on..but thanks Allah...negative results for h1n1..wuu~.. thinking i might be quarantine for 7 days...feels like hell to be quarantine..what did i do during my hols?..ahaa!..i played frisbee with my frens..kimah+nadia+dilah n some lil kids i met..dunno their name..haha.. in s.a..hang out together, went home late in the nite..alone..yeah!..felt so happy~..see, alia is mumbling again n that is what blog is for..a place for me to mumble..haha..actually, i dunno what to say..haha..a bit numb here rite now..neway..i'm back!...

[looking back]

hurm,first of all..[assalamualaikum]

well,year1 totally finished on 21st april..ethnic paper not in da way anymore~...i am very2 damn boring now..hols feels like the same..probably becoz i always went back home during the weekends..pity for my mum..she always feel lonely becoz her sweet daughter is not at home..haha..always went back home?..gee~ i never missed a weekend at home eventhough i had classes on saturday..all for my mother..feel like a [gedix gurl- asik2 nk balik umah je!]

should i try not to go back home when i am in year2[insyaAllah year2 if i am alive]? i really want to do it..i think i really miss my life living in hostel..the memorable memories when i was in secondary school+matrix ..having ur life on ur own..u depend on urself to do everything..actually,the reason i choose perak matriculation college is to be far away from my house.. its not dat i dun wanna to be at home..i want to be a person who stands on her own feet..eventhough i experienced my life in hostel during 2ndry school..i dun think its enough..
my hope to study abroad after SPM didnt happened at all..i challenged myself after school..my dad wanted to send me to egypt..but i want to have my victory based on my own hard work..so, there i was in perak..hurm..seeing my frens studying abroad really hits my heart...like a woodman hitting my heart during my first love..[lagha2] hahaha..but thanx to Allah..i managed to get wut i dreamt of..syukran ya Allah..!!!..eventhough i am in msia..i c studying in msia is much more easier to handle after hearing my frens mumbling bout their life in overseas..at first, i applied for UMS [universiti malaysia sabah]..but then my mum disagree..wut to do?..i juz followed her..

well, eventhough we said : [after ni ak nk g overseas a]+[ak akan dptkan SPM hebatnye result]+[dpt lelaki hensem jd bf..lagi elok dpt jd suami tros..haha]..it depends on Allah's will..i always remind myself bout that..u should too..i remembered my lecturer said : [kalo korang dh usaha btol2..dh sure hebatnye dpt jwb soklan..x semestinye Allah redha] one more my ustazah said:[ kalo Allah nk letak hijab [cm penutup/halangan]kat depan kita..time xm pon sure x le jwb even dh pulun habis]..

to my kazen..eventhough u didnt get wut u aim for ur SPM result..juz remember that there will be a more better way for u ..n of course, that comes from Allah..

hurm, eventhough we tried our very best n prayed a lot to ALLAH for ourselves n if we dun get want we want, juz stay cool n try to remember wut u did wrong to urself,to ur parents n to anyone or even ur cats~..i always do like that..n when i keep on thinking, i realized wut i did wrong..[never lost on hope ALLAH...]...one more when u asked sumthing from ALLAH , example: to success in xm..my ustazah[ustazah azharina] in my 2ndry school said: [doakn dulu kawan2, br diri alia..kalau doa ntok alia dulu..nmpk cm selfish je kan..jgn resau, insyaAllah , Allah tlg kite bile kite tlg kawan2]


P/S: SENSE IN BEGIN AND ENDS IN THE MIND

WASSALAM

in heaven!

wow!..its been so long i didnt post anything..

this time i need to post it simply..just for this time..i guess!..haha..
feeling like im in heaven..finished the toughest and unfair exam in the world like the dean of the medical faculty said before ..so relieved..now , there is only one paper left-ethnic- this 21st april..
other faculties are now having their study week..n we have left the burden behind..alhamdulillah..
now, the point here is to pray a lot to Allah after we've done our very best in exam!..

P/S: year1 has finished just like that..erm..time is flying very fast..thnx for the memories my frens..thnx for being my wonderful friends..haha..can't wait for my juniors..i want to bully them..hehe..just kidding!


gambate everyone!..

big apple!

huh..yesterday, i am totally exhausted!. new assignments to be done before exam..urgh!..aha!..my frens and i are now a fan of big apple!..hahaha..i love the 'alien'..

today, insyaAllah..we will go to Sacc Mall to buy that crap thing..hahaha..so sweet enough to diagnose u to have diabetes..god forbid!.

nyum2..cant wait to taste it!

hahaha..suddenly i remembered my presentation for my english class..the lecturer, played it again yesterday..hahaha..i was really a jerk..hahaha...doing my silly jokes..cant describe it..ill try to ask for the video from my lecturer later..wished to watch it a lot of time...

huh..counting the days for exam!..i dunno..the main point here is, i am NOT PREPARED!!...
waa~..if only there is no exams in this world..hohoh..6 april-9 april..ur killing me!..

miss my chocolate cake!..
sorry, i cannot publish a long2 post..because i dunno wut to write about...hoho..

i want to go home!

huhu..actually,i dunno wut to write..erm..in the lab comp of my fac now..try to print for pbl repro but this maniac pendrive of mine is not working...one more work to delay..hurm..

i want to go home!...hahaha..maybe because i feel the cuakness of sem2 exam..

erm..sumtimes not all the things that u want in life, u can have it..
erm..im thinking bout sumthing rite now but i dunno how to tell in this blog..hoho..anyway..gotta go..perut sudah lapar..lps ni ade klas english plak kol 2..adios!

CNS module is over! + sad

alhamdulillah..CNS test dh lps smlm..huhu..5 weeks of hell..hahaha..i stayed up to study the notes..so hard for me to stay up to study when i am in this medical school... i could stay up when i was in school+ matriks..but its really,totally, absolutely, definitely a miracle if I can stay up when i enter this school...hoho..owh well..yesterday was kemal's bufday..happy bufday kid!..hahaha..sorry!..just kidding! we celebrated her bufday at nando's.

erm..i dunno why..but i seem to be sad..maybe because im missing sumone..lost contact i guess..hoho...or maybe he's running away from me?..but before that, he's not my bf k.. well he is in another school now..since then he never contact me..is not that i dun want to contact him but i feel that maybe im bothering him..i feel like sumtimes i just want him to go but i can't..he is the precious person i ever knew..erm..i dunno wut to say..i am just sad because he didnt try to contact me..is alia will still be among his precious persons?..if u read my blog, i just want to tell u that i miss u so much..thnx for all u've done n please try to contact me..


huhu..cite sedyh plak!..

P/S: reproductive module is the last module for sem2..or year 1..owh ..can't imagine..time do fly very fast..year 1 is going to finish in couple of weeks..

felt guilty

so tired..today, i accompanied my mum to get her clothes in Ampang..actually, i dun want to go..thinking i could not finish my studies if I follow..4 more weeks to go for exam....i felt so guilty..but well..mum i s a mum..n i am the daughter..i juz follow her coz im very pity of her..i remembered one of our lecturers said: korg balik umah je, tros tutup pintu..stadi je ..nk hang out ngan mak ayah pon x le..x sian ke kat dorg?..those words are kept deeply into my heart..i think im one of the person who act like that..well, i was really pissed off with myself though..such a horrible daughter..the only best thing to go home..is to see ur parents face+ siblings!..thats a wonderful situation i would love to go through out my life..how happy they are when i was home..i feel so safe..well..i am one of the member of PBSM...Persatuan Balik Setiap Minggu!..huhu..remembered that my friend said that when she went home..her sis said: bile ko balik je umah, mke mak abah tros berubah..happy semacam je...

for me..i will be sad if my siblings says those words to me..but i am really happy to see their happy face when i am at home..I always hug them..showing them how much they mean to me eventhough im busy studying or wutsoeva..we should be grateful that our parents are still alive..try to be anak soleh or solehah..i dunno what would happen to me if i can't see them anymore..i pray to Allah everyday, hoping that my parents will live more longer n be healthy all the time..i really missed them..
ma n pa..i love both of u so much!..thanks for all ur sacrifices..LOVE u!

P/S: take a time to say u love ur parents before they are not there for u anymore..pray for them..

cuak ouh!+malu+rise 4 gaza

CUAK OUH!

hehe..kali ni nk type dlm malay plak a..hehe..exam final 6.4-9.4.09..btol ke ouh?..tp yg penting 6 april dh stat..ak mmg tgh cuak sgt ni even dh sure year2 dpt proceed..kecuakan ak ni sesuai sgt ngan modul tga blaja ni..central nervous system..ape ak cuak a..maybe modul ni byk gile nk hafal..igt..phm..n wutsoeva..dh lama ouh x tulis kat blog ak ni..assgnmnt ak pon x siap lagi..


MALU

23 feb tuh ade dinner night of meaningful petals..ape lagi ek nama die..x igt..hahaha..fac ak nye..kat dewan felda semarak..ye ke..hahaha..huhu..ak jadi ajk hadiah..mmg ak rse sengal gak mlm tuh..mne x gelabahnye ajk2 hadiah len bile MC x ikot susunan nama nk bg adiah..dorg x inform nk tukar susunan..kitorg punye a susun cam ayam..nak jd satu hal plak..kitorg dok blkg stage x dgr pe MC bebel..signal kitorg sape yg nek pentas je bg a..hadiah dh a len2..tup2 nk jadi cite..kitog salah bg adiah..mmg hectic ouh..tp bt2 dunno..ak lagi la..elok2 g depan bwk hamper..dpn org ramai atas stage tu..ak patah balik..hahaha..pdhl org yg nek nk amek adiah dh nek stage..salah adiah ouh!!! nasib mmbe ak bwk adiah len..ak pon x taw a..mase tu ak relaks je..x rse malu pon..tp bile pk2 balik n ade mmber yg tego..nmpk ak patah balik..uihh..rse malu tuh melompat2..hahaha..nasib a geng ak x nmpk ak bt ape..dorg tga amek gamba..ceh..lpekan ak..hehehe..x ajak join skali...x kesah a...ak mls nk pk dh..


RISE 4 GAZA


25 feb..fac ak bt majlis tajuk atas tuh a..bg sumbgn kat amal palestin...bt time mlm..best sgt mlm tuh..abg2 year2 perform nasyid..ade sorg tuh ak ske tgk mke die..tp bile pk2 balik..ak nk je suh abg tuh jauh dpd mata aku...x tahan ouh~!!.hensem sgt..hahaha..mantap ouh..ummul pon bersajak die..terpegun ouh!..tabik spring ak weyh!..insaf gak ak mlm tuh..smgt btol budak2 medic ni..semua pkai bj hitam..cam anti-israel..pastu kat kepala..pkai kain tulis rise 4 gaza...nk jadi cite..ak n rumate ak ni mmg x de payung..dulu ade a..ak nye rosak..rumatenye ilang..bape kali ntah ilang payung die..pas2 jmpe..tp ni dh x jmpe..sian polka dots die..tup2..mlm tuh ujan!!..lebat gile plak tuh..event abes dlm kol 12 x silap..hostel pon jauh gile..duduk kami bersama rakan2 len yg x de payung sambil menikmati mihun ajk bg..lapar mnggile!..kitog dh x de harapan ouh nk balik..rse nk tdo je kat fac..klas kol 8pg..pas2..kitorg balik gak..elok2 nk balik tuh..ttbe akk senior year2 jerit panggil nek kete..semua mmbe lari ke arah kete..satu je pon kete die.mle2 ak lari gak..tp ak jd numb jap..berdiri tgk mmbe ak lari..argh!..ak nmpk je rumate ak lari..ak pon lari la ouh..mne le die tggl ak!..kete muat 3 org je coz ade akk2 len..ak dh dpt masuk ngan rumate n kema..tp ouh..mlm tuh rse serba salah la..geng len kene ujan lebat!..habis lencun..nk je ak turun kete..rumate pon sama..tp die kata dh rezeki..tp sedyh sgt ouh..mmber2 basah..nek kete tuh..abg year2 yg drive..die pesan blaja elok2..thnx abg for the drive!..balik je bilik..ak tros tdo...sok ade klas..dh x prepare 100%..mls nk pk..katil ak lagi best..tuh je ak nk cite!!hehe



P/S: ntok budak2 medic..usaha tangga kejayaan!!..hehehe..smoga kite berjaya dlm EXAM !!insyaAllah..

i remembered an incident, i was in trauma..or i wasnt?

actually, suddenly today, i remembered 2 years ago when i was in matrix..i went to visit my grandma who was sick..but shes okay..thnx Allah..

suddenly i was informed that my cousin was involved in an accident, so i rushed to see him at the emergency room in the hosp..what hosp was it..i dun remember..n beside him, on the other bed..i heared doctors n nurses were freaking out..yelling..so critical..i bet they were trying to save a man's life..n i saw a women waiting in fear..the curtains were closed..n suddenly i heared..sumone said: we cant save him..n heared that ECG stops working..i knew the man was gone...and i saw the man on the bed..no one with him now..just him..alone with blankets covering him..n the woman starts crying..

i was just shock..never thought i would experienced it..but i was rather cool..maybe i was crazy dat time..huhu..

how would u feel if u were in my shoes?

P/S: remember Allah always..we wont noe when we'll die..

ur crazy!

actually, im the one who is crazy..humiliated yesterday..all becoz of this new retainer.. like an idiot speaking to that guy to buy my frens book...guy?..owh maybe sumones dad!..wahaha..he laughed at me with his fren..if only i could beat him up..hehe..

today..im so tired..thinking bout the future..i just want to run away!..i think i can..i think i cant...horrible alia! come my bebeh..come faster n faster so that i can slap u..hoho

HOw could u leave me alone without u?

im so sad dat u left me...3 years with u..im gonna miss u throughout my life..things we shared together..we ate together..when i ate my fav food..u also did..eventhough i dun even know whether u liked it or not..how could they separate us like dat.. u also felt the pain when i was hurt..ur so adorable..i love u so much..but now they introduce me to a new u..better than u..u may think im cruel..i wasnt..it was for my own good..thanks to them..im so sorry my love..the love we shared are now gone...


hahaha..im crazy~!!!..
probably ull think i just broke up with my bf..or whatsoeva..wrong!!!

its my BRACES!!...i lost my braces TODAY!..well i didnt lost it at the road..dats so crap~i lost it at the clinic in Bangsar.. the doc took out the braces.!!!...im free...but not that happy 100%...that was a memory..really sweet memory..i started wearing it when i was in form4..

in exchange..the doc gave me sumthing called retainer..it hurts..really when i have absscess in my mouth..infection i guess..i cant speak properly..like a child starting to learn how to speak ABC..cant eat well...urgh..imagine it...anyway,..a new life has started today..n ill live with it for 1 year if Allah still wanted me to live..



P/S: love sumbody who loves u very much..take the opportunity to appreciate them for loving u before they're not there for u anymore..just say u love them n im sure they'll be happy 100%!

Thanks a LOT mum!

huhu..im so happy becoz my mum bought me a teddy bear!..maybe ull think im childish..its been so long that i didnt bought for myself a teddy bear..thanks mum~

sweet rite?

well, anyway, today i woke up early n did some work on my assignment..
my head is going to explode thinking bout urinary module that was very tough for me..i should revise it back before its too late..i remembered during my 1st mid sem break, i didnt even touched my book..i was like a butterfly..felt so free to do what i wanted..i was very2 happy but i dun noe y i feel so hectic this 2nd break..maybe becoz im crazy..hahaha..wuteva it takes..im not a nerd n i wont let the books get over me..

i also went to a wedding ceremony in Bandar Tun Razak..how lucky i was, alhamdulillah..becoz they gave chocolate muffins with white chocolate chips on them..pergh..i was delighted when i saw all the muffins!!..plz give me more chocolate muffins will u..

hahaha..i just wanted to laugh a lot till my house crushes down on me.. y?..becoz i looked back into my drawer n found my diary..just a simple diary when i was in form1 2002..i felt so silly reading it back..bout who i liked..but now i dun even care anymore..where i did go in that year..my words was so childish..hahaha..crap~ i also found the precious thing ever my bro gave to me after we had our silat training years ago. It was some kinda wood with motivation words on it n a note from him at the back of it, wishing me gudluck for SPM 2006..that was so sweet of u~ thanks a lot..u made me happy..hehehe..love u lots!

P/S: -catch someone doing something right today and praise them for it..
-make sumone happy even they treat u bad, insyaAllah ull be bless by Allah.

Getting the Quack out of the System

Today i read about the phenomenon that is bashing the doctors nowadays in today's New Straits Times.

COMMON SHORTCOMINGS OF HOUSEMEN

• Poor skills in history-taking, physical examination, time management, ethics and conduct

• Poor core knowledge; insufficient knowledge of basic problems and current management based on clinical evidence

• Poor attitude and lack of bedside manners

Some medical universities, both local and overseas, are churning out doctors who cannot carry out common medical procedures,have no proper clinical exposure, cannot communicate effectively and cannot even take down the history of patients properly for diagnosis and treatment.

Because of these troublesome situations, its really sad to know that some of the fresh doctors are retained in their housemen training postings for years, some even up to 6 years, because they cannot meet the standards.The compulsory housemenship is 2 years.

The above circumtances really made the Malaysian Medical Council worried.

So, for all the medical students out there, who will be a doctor one day including me..insyaAllah...we should be the doctors that could fulfill all the standards needed by the Malaysian Medical Council..its not only about to fulfill the requirements but it is also imperative to make us a good doctor in all areas..

Just remember if our intention to be a doctor is for Allah ,everything will be smooth..insyaAllah


i summon all the doctors wannabe..Show the world the new good generation of doctors!

" To be a good doctor it is not how much knowledge u have...it is clinical acumen and the skills developed in treating patients"

P/S:" Medicine is not black or white but lots of grey in between and in order to identify the grey areas, the only way is the more u see, the more u do, the more u understand"

neW bOrn bLog+cHocolatE cAkE

assalamualaikum,..

well2..this is my first blog ever..hehe..really wanted to have it long2 ago but im too bz..hoho..thanks to ALLAH

today is my lucky day!..i got a chocolate cake from my friend while i was waiting for sumone to pick me up from my hostel..well its mid sem break..i said thnx a lot to her mum..if only she knew dat i am a chocolate cake header..hehe..

owh well..yesterday was papa's birthday!..happy birthday dad! ur are the best ever dad i have in this whole wide world..words can't express how i feel bout u..all ur sacrificies for our family..thanks a lot PAPA!
i do love this month bcoz 9th jan is a meaningful day for me..
Happy BIRTHday again to my beloved person..u make me up n down..haha..nvm..we both like to fight..n then we will be nice to each other again..anyway,i dun care..all i know that i love u so much~..but before that,i love Allah first..

erm..on 3rd jan,it was my bestfriend's bufday..but i didnt wish her..i did it on purpose..i knew her since we were standard 1..same school-SK Taman Tasik, Ampang..well, maybe it seems like im cruel but..i was dissappointed with her becoz she never wished me on my bufday..we were apart when i went to SAM10..since that she forgot my bufday..

p/s: -dad- i luv so much
-bro- i luv u too so much
-sakinah- sumtimes..i regret wut i've done..sorry~happy belated bufday..

wuteva..all da best for all!!hehe..gudnite!